Friday, April 29, 2005

guess i've been slacking the past few days... watched Linus get a ohh-so-nice leather bag. yeap yeap and its SDG $70.00 from Flash n Splash... Ripcurl. damn nice man.. but i found that the bag has a slight insecticide smell(think it's just me =X). played pool 4 out of 5 days, so fun... like play the time everyone improved quite a bit(except me)

bleah~

wahahaha... broke. i hate spending money and not having it replaced. as XiXi said "money go out never come in de" think that this is our problem right now... so have to get a job(duh). some job that allows us to play and earn money at the same time(i don't mind getting to know new girls as well =D). hahaha... play play play... everyday play pool also not an option. maybe i should switch to LAN gaming. seems cheaper.

oh well, might as well save up and buy a pool table at home instead and charge people for playing. at a discounted rate of course... my peak hours will never be more expensive than those outside =D. and if you come often enough, i'll even start issuing membership cards for even lower prices! so what are you waiting for? give me money to buy one now!

psycho~

speaking of giving money, that polo tee is still stuck in my mind. note to In.Surge: you guys are making me part with my hard saved cash. happily. and i don't like that. bleeaah~ oh oh, and there's this other shirt with the design at the side... looks nice too. i seem to be repeating what i have mentioned before here.

another thing, since we have been going out, we haven't stepped into FOREVER 21 this week! what a miracle! and even if we have to go, must have everyone present... so that the 3 guys can resume their usual positions(and maybe see Xiaxue again. hahahah)

been thinking lately... that this is impossible. i've known it all along i suppose.. but not willing to embrace it. but after a period of time it sorta gets drilled into you time and time again and begin to accept. not because of other factors(for Prisc, Nicole and Stella: XiXi is not a factor in this decision.) i guess thats the way life goes. if not then so be it. not everything will be yours. and if one day that happens, you will end up with nothing at the end. sounds confusing. i am right now.

so heres a break in the paragragh to make this less messy(english -_-"). as i was saying, i'm still young!(even though i complain i'm old). talking with yvonne about her own problems made me realise my own. it would be the childish part of me asking me to hold on, to that tiny glimmer of hope that she would accept. on the other hand, the rational part would be just to forget it, because there are a hell other girls that require loving and i could be next in line(sounds like some corny tv ad -_-") tsk tsk. can't belive i'm thinking this way... i wasn't like this last time. nothing could move me(literally. i WAS quite heavy u know. read: OVERWEIGHT)

next time i'll just try harder to make it happen with someone else. right now, i'm on my way out of here and into infinity~

*and once again, the cold recesses of space welcome me*

Posted by melvin at 9:25 PM